Friday, April 20, 2012

Two Years

April marks the month that we moved to Indiana. Two years ago, the weekend after Easter, we packed up a large moving truck with the help of friends and family, attended church to say our goodbyes and started driving the 14 hours to Goshen.
Easter 2010
 Aiden 5 mo, Cai 20 mo, Ian 3 yrs

 Now it's hard to believe that two years have past. I kinda figured after our move we would settle in and life would settle down. So not true. One year and one month later we moved into Mark's folks house and started the emotionally taxing task of house hunting (again). This time with the hope of buying rather than renting.
Easter 2011
Aiden 17 mo, Cai 2 yrs, Ian 4 yrs

 Four almost five months later we closed on our house. And another month later moved in. Can I just say here that I'm still excited and happy about our house. Sure home ownership has brought with it challenges we were not exactly expecting, but we, or at least I, am enjoying it all.
Easter 2012
Aiden 2 yrs, Cai 3 yrs, Ian 5yrs

 Now just three months ago Mark changed jobs and we are enjoying the benefits his new employment is bringing. One of which translates to less stress for him, which usually means less stress for all. And most recently we have once again become a two car family. We are now the proud owners of a '92 Chevy S-10. And I do mean proud. Mark and I both love the truck. Not to mention it feels so nice to have a second vehicle  that  is not company owned, and thus only Mark can drive, or borrowed from family. It's nice to not feel stranded or feel as if I'm stranding Mark when one of us leave. So when looking back alot has changed in two years.
April 2010
Cai in the van on our way to Goshen

And it's not that I thought life would be stagnant here. Everything changes. We all grow. I just have to look at the pictures from last year or the year before to see that. But I did think life would settle down. The last six years have been a whirlwind of change for Mark and I

April 2010
Aiden and Ian playing on the floor in our first Goshen house 

 And there was a part of me that thought after this move, life would settle into a little more predictability. No such luck as of yet. And something tells me that luck is not going to change anytime soon. Come August Ian will start kindergarten. And with that will bring changes that will be no less disorienting that any of the past.

April 2011

But I'm coming to find that just maybe that is were life is. We grow within these changes. I grow within these changes. And while I'll still look forward to a time when life is a little more predictable, I can live right now these spaces. Or I can at least try to/
April 2011- Easter

Live in the joy of home ownership, even when all the house and yard projects threaten to overwhelm me. Live in the newness of no diapers (that's right other than at night Aiden is out of diapers).
April 2012

 Live in the joy of preschool while looking forward to the new challenges and excitement that elementary school will bring. Live  in this routine, this reality, just as much as I look forward, worry and question what routines will look like tomorrow, this summer and next year, a year or years from now.
April 2012- self photo

 Recognizing that two years have passed and much as changed does not have to be as scary as I make it out to be. Maybe I can take some reassurance in these life changes. After all, I have three little boys, change comes with the territory. Doesn't it?
April 2012- Easter egg hunt

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